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My First Poem<\/h1>\n\n\n<\/div>\n \n \n By<\/span>Maddie Kutler<\/strong>\n \n December 1, 2019<\/span>\n <\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n <\/div><\/div>\n\n \n \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
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I wake up in a bed of frozen peas, the muslin sheet wet, sticky, twisted in my toes<\/p>\n

Sobs rack the walls, I stretch my ribs and tell them hush<\/p>\n

The boy under my bed shows his teeth, whiter than white, hundreds of them, I grin back<\/p>\n

My parents are at the breakfast table. In the time it takes me to get to them they have aged fifty<\/p>\n

years<\/p>\n

Their hair falls into my palms, their skin rippling with countless flaking folds as they turn away<\/p>\n

The dog treads over: \u201cYou witch. You horrid, stinking man,\u201d he spits, lipless<\/p>\n

I stare openly at the library receptionist. She looks like the contorted red woman from my<\/p>\n

dreams<\/p>\n

All I needed was hormones to be a big boy<\/p>\n

I look down at the sidewalk\u2019s gum- and shit-stained gutters. \u201cAre you angrier than me?\u201d<\/p>\n

A cube of whale fat and then off to bed<\/p>\n

Filled with dread, my knees facing the wrong way, my utter exultation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<\/div>\n\n\n <\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n\n \n \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n

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Madeline Kutler<\/strong> is a junior Psychology and French major at the University of Southern California. She is quite new to the world of poetry, but loves to paint and draw. 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